Hmmm....

Long Overdue

2009-08-01T02:05:00.000-07:00

When I was raised I was always the kid, who had people watchin every thing I did
I lived for the moment that'd make me a star, especially the time I spent with my guitar
I wanted to make it big at a little age, I would vision myself just ahangin backstage
I never really wanted the minimum wage, When havin everything you wanted seemed all the rage.

It used to be it was all about me
Livin my life for the next party
Then one day I realised I wasn't happy
Like the fairy tale said the sky fell on me.

I was never the guy that was into the drugs, I was always that guy just lookin for love
and the hugs and and the parties turned me to the guy poundin back mugs
I thought if I could be the one to entertain, then everything I wanted I could obtain
I though that some drinkin could heal my pain, Seems to be to me that the devil did reign.

One day I woke up lyin next to some girl, sent my world in an awful whirl
All my emotions started to unfurl, and I felt that I was just about to hurl
I had all the history bottled up, and it all came out in a big erupt
It shook me so hard and so abrupt, that there in that moment I told myself,
enough is enough.

It used to be it was all about me
Livin my life for the next party
Then one day I realised I wasn't happy
All my actions brought the world down on me
But Now I'm livin life with a big ol smile
I live it all up with a different style
I still do mess up once in a while
But Love can make it all worthwhile

You no longer run into me at the bars, or drivin up to parties in the fancy cars
But I found love that don't come with a charge, Now in my heart I'm livin so large
The Lord grabbed a hold of me and never let go, and You can feel this good too, I hope you know
All you gotta do is stand up and throw, Yourself on the ground just down below, the foot of the cross where you can grow, no need to feel yourself start to hit a plateau, and blessings on you God will bestow. Cause Jesus Christ himself can be your bro

You can choose it too and I hope you do
Cause up in the heavens I'll be seein you
We can live it up with a life anew
Just make a choice long overdue
And Live your life with a big ol smile
Live it all up with a different style
You'll still mess up maybe once in a while
But the love of God can make it all worthwhile

Revered

2009-06-14T03:54:00.000-07:00

Lookin to the past, has left me kinda faded
From beginning to the last, my past is contemplated
Thinkin back to you, spins me all around
Emotions runnin wild, I'm up and then I'm down

I just don't understand, why you chose to be with him
On this you never bend, your future's lookin grim
I offered happiness, and you spat upon my face
I don't know why I love, such a big disgrace.

You played me, betrayed me, and left me on the ground
You beat me, mistreat me, as if I was a rebound
You sought me, you caught me, then you disappeared
Through it all, the close calls, to me you were revered

I cant get you outside my head, you're in there till the end
I want to hold you in my arms, but i don't even want to be your friend
You just cant wrap your head around, what I am going through
For one day, were you in my place, Oh God I wish you only knew

The lessons you have taught me, embedded in my soul
Every time I open up, its like my heart just got out on parole
But soon the iron bars come down, a smile is nowhere to be found
Commitment comes, I run away, I don't know how I can convey

You played me, betrayed me, and left me on the ground
You beat me, mistreat me, as if I was a rebound
You sought me, you caught me, then you disappeared
Through it all, the close calls, to me you were revered

I just cant seem to let you go, it sickens me I hope you know
My soul is tortured, scorned, and scarred, Because of you my heart is hard
I hope you look to my success, and recognize your emptiness
The man you're with will wash away, your love for him will soon decay

Even after all you've done, I'm weak and I'd still be the one
To wipe away your loneliness, to save you from all your distress
To pull you close and hold you near, to scare away your every fear
I'll be here but it's killing me, I just wish that you would only see

You played me, betrayed me, and left me on the ground
You beat me, mistreat me, as if I was a rebound
You sought me, you caught me, then you disappeared
Through it all, the close calls, to me you were revered
You played me, betrayed me, and left me on the ground
You beat me, mistreat me, as if I was a rebound
You sought me, you caught me, then you disappeared
Through it all, the close calls, to me you are revered.

Give it a rest

2009-06-08T02:14:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been thinkin, and I've found out who I am
Some men need a woman to define them, I'm the single man
Every time I end up datin, it just always ends the same
I've come to a realization, that Relationships are lame

Why oh why just cant it be that I have fun all the time?
I always find me a woman intently without reason or rhyme
I just wanna be me, single and happy, without all of the mess
I'll go on some dates but not much more cause bein single is the best

I've tried to model my whole life after people who got it right
But I see now I'm not them I am myself from daybreak till the night
Some people do not understand why I just cant settle down
It's cause in the past whenever I've tried, my smile turns to a frown

Why oh why just cant it be that I have fun all the time?
I always find me a woman intently without reason or rhyme.
I just wanna be me, single and happy, without all of the mess.
I've been in the hustle and bustle of the game, but now it's time to rest.
I'll give it a rest(x2)

I'm the kind of guy, that would just love to find, the one to complete my life.
But with girls bein oh so shady these days, Who would want a wife?
I wanna be a bachelor till the rapture, or least untill I'm gone.
If I found the one captivating, cool, but relationships make me yawn

Why oh why just cant it be that I have fun all the time?
I always seem find me a woman intently without reason or rhyme.
I just wanna be me, single and happy, without all of the mess.
I'll go on some dates but not much more cause bein single is the best

Not many people are just like me, so dont take this the wrong way
Some people believe in fairy tale endings like santa and a sleigh
But me I'm a realist, I've come to find that relationships end in hurt
So for now I will not be locked down, No more guilt for bein a flirt

My life is changin, it's gonna be that I have fun all the time
No more gettin serious with some girl, from now on that's a crime
I'm just gonna be me, single and happy, without all of the mess.
It's time I got out of the game, and finally got some rest.
I'll give it a rest(x4)

Give it up

2009-05-15T13:36:00.001-07:00

There's those of you out there, who hurt every day
You've made some decisions that lead you astray
I wonder if you know, or have even a clue
that if you'd give it to God you'd be completely renewed

Just Give it to God, you cant do it alone
Give it to God, if you want to atone
The Lord hears your prayers, and he wants you to know
That if you give it to God, You won't be on your own.

I saw my friend the other day, there was pain in her eyes
I asked what was wrong, and she started to cry.
She said the whole world's comin down, right on her head
She said somethin happened last night with a man and a bed

When I was a teen, I dated alot
No matter what I did, It never hit the spot.
I was always out tryin to fill the hole in my life.
God told me if I gave it up, he'd end all my strife.

Every single one of you, knows just what I mean
You think you have it figured out when you find you're between
A rock and a hard place with nowhere to go,
If you'd just Give it up to God
You wouldnt be on your own.

Give it to God, you cant do it alone
Give it to God, if you want to atone
The Lord hears your prayers, and he wants you to know
That if you give it to God, You won't live on your own.

Another Man

2009-05-10T21:30:00.000-07:00

I've been on a qwest for love, in all the wrong places
Different situations, and different faces
I dont know if the right one, will ever come along

Some people call me good and some people call me bad
But I've been cut down to the bone, by every woman I have had
It's put me in a spot that I dont know if I'll get out
I've been walked on in the past, But Now I've got to shout out loud

I've given up on love, my entire journey's been for lust
You think that's at the core, but you barely touched the crust
I'm over bein broken, and I'm over bein hurt
I'm the rebound no longer, I'd just rather be the jerk

My friends call me a mans man, the kind my bros all want to be
I want to tell them; shut up, you dont wanna be like me
cause the cover looks good, but go on and have a look inside
I need to throw away my value, to refill my pride

I've thought hard about stayin, the way that I am
But come on, let's face it, I've become another man
I was pushed up to the edge, and I just threw my body down
You can try to make me hold on, but it's too late, I have drown

I've given up on love, my whole journey's been for lust
You think that's at the core, but you've barely scratched the crust
I'm over bein broken, and I'm over bein hurt
I'm the rebound no longer, I'd just rather be the jerk

I'm not the man I used to be, I just aint that man at all
My past was stripped away from me when I let myself fall
I dont wanna have a title that makes people shy away
But I'm in a good place in this heart of mine, and this is where I'll stay

Shoulder to Cry

2009-05-05T17:17:00.000-07:00

I was brought up to be, the man of her dreams
To never raise a hand, and never to scream
I was raised to give kisses, and a gentle embrace
To do all those little things, to put a smile on her face

But No woman wants a nice guy
All they want is the Ass
Who'll use em, abuse em
Then send them right back
To the Trusty ol Nice Guy
The one to cry on
The sappy romantic
Who never did any wrong

I was never taught that women, see kindness as weak
I didn't know it was weakness to wipe tears from her cheek
She'd cry on my shoulder, and cry in her hands
Then run right on back, to that Excuse of a man.

I hear that they're out there, "good ones" you meet
All the ones that I've met, have left me broken and beat
I've tried to be the "other guy" and not care at all
But my daddy raised me right, ever since I could crawl

I dont know what'll happen, To the good men like me
There's so few of us out there, And we're startin to see
That it's the other man you want, so the other we'll be.
Then maybe you'll miss us, and maybe you'll see

The end of my story, isnt happy at all.
We're here to pick you up, But you let yourself fall
So were changin to ass holes, And thats about a wrap
We'll see you at the bars, and We'll treat you like crap.
Cause that's what you like, That's where we went wrong
All the woman wanted an ass hole All Along

Cause no woman wants a nice guy,
All the women want an ass
The man who'll use em, abuse em.
Then Send them right back
To Their trusty ol nice guy
Their shoulder to cry on
The sappy romantic
Who never did any wrong
Till now

Nice Guy?

2009-03-10T19:17:00.000-07:00

The harshest words I've ever heard, when we are all alone,
The ones that tear me up the most, and cut me to the bone,
Not words of anger or of hate, nor words that scream and cry,
But kindly spoken, gentle words, the ones that say "Nice Guy".

For nice guys finish last my love, and spend life on their own,
They spend their evenings with a book, not talking on the phone,
The calls they get are hurried ones, to fix the things amiss,
And on the cheek they sometimes get, a soft and gentle kiss.

They don't cuddle you upon the couch, when sad movies make you weep,
Nor curl up soft beside you, to watch you while you sleep,
Or see desire swell in your eyes, for love anticipated,
Nor kiss you soft and hold you close, as love is consummated.

The things they wish for you hold back, the nice guy is your friend,
No thoughts of quenching passions fire, on this you never bend,
Nor offerings of hearts desire, to fit you like a glove,
Just never ending kindness, and this brother kind of love.

Oh Lord, just once I'd love to be, a bastard in your eyes,
To show a different side of me, and catch you by surprise,
But leopards never change their spots, and nice guys can't be jerks,
So if you see a different side, it's just our little quirks.

So please don't say how much you care, that only gives me hope,
Nor how you love and need me, that's just more hanging rope,
And please don't say how sweet I am, or that I'm a nice guy,
Cause if I hear those words once more, I'll go curl up and die.